Triumphant Faith in a Fallen World

I have to admit, I have been struggling. I am absolutely overwhelmed that the leaders in our church and the Women's Ministry have felt led by the Lord to entrust this new venture of CCPC Blossoming Women to me (and Yvette). I wasted a great deal of my time yesterday struggling. When I say struggling, I mean, needing the courage to even carry on with what we have done so far. I felt so inadequate. Why would a person like me, with a not so pretty past, be trusted by Our Creator to guide other women? How could I know what to say or what to do?

Jim Dallery, during Sunday School yesterday, said told us in his open and honest fashion, that he too is a redeemed sinner and he struggles with pride {love of self}. He then talked about having

triumphant faith in a fallen world. There were 4 ways, but #3 was what spoke to me:

Have a believing heart. Ask God in faith for wisdom. Trust Him.

After reflecting this morning for some time, I feel the Lord revealed to me what was wrong with me! I am one with little faith. I did not and do not at times believe that God can redeem sinners. I was reading in Job 38-39, which is God's answer to questions that Job had asked Him. God's reply was not an answer to Job's question directly. It was a series of questions that no human could ever possibly answer. I would encourage you to read through The Lord's response. Job, in chapter 42: 1-6, responded just as I needed to hear.

1Then Job replied to the Lord:

2“I know that you can do all things;

no plan of yours can be thwarted.

3[You asked,] ‘Who is this that obscures my counsel without knowledge?’

Surely I spoke of things I did not understand,

things too wonderful for me to know.

4[“You said,] ‘Listen now, and I will speak;

I will question you,

and you shall answer me.’

5My ears had heard of you

but now my eyes have seen you.

6Therefore I despise myself

and repent in dust and ashes.”

In the footnote of my study bible for chapter 42: 2-4, it says the following:

"Job openly and honestly faced God and admitted that he was the one who had been foolish. Are you using what you can't understand as an excuse for your lack of trust? Admit to God that you don't even have enough faith to trust Him. True faith begins in such humility."

Humility, repentance, faith and trust...that must be a sweet sound for the Lord to hear. The song "How Great is Our God" plays in my mind as I type this.
I encourage you all to fall before the Lord, admit if there is doubt, repent and be restored.

Sarah